from yuyu's heart

last update da lame since chinese new year rite...since i have nothing to share with with all of u and a bit of malas melande diri sendiri!here i want to share with all of u my thought and my stand in my point of view.

i have a very dull life in my golden teenager life...i have no luxury,comfortable life for me to think about only myself like other.n by then i realised that it is very rugi for me to have such a lame life.BUT i have no choice...seeing all of my friends happy with their life,their couples,their teenagers life,their money,their daily activities such as shoppin,make me feel really down...and be more upset with myself.BUT when i rethink again,should i felt that way.

since i am in my childhood..there was no happiness for me until someone present in my life and taught me how to feel happy and living my life to the fullest.but its not happens longer and sumthing that happened really make me lost of something that is very valuable to me..yesss!!!the sadness always appear in my life and my dream and my bla bla bla....its hard for me to face all of things that happens to my life...and im not ready to face them yet..the oned that i taught that will always by my side,understanding me,is not really know and understand me for what i wanted 'he' to understand..

friends?oh no...i do not have friend since i always have no money...friend comes with money!if u have a lot of money,believe me that you must have a lot of friend and for the one that has no money exactly like me,zero..people nowadays are very materialistics til although someone that have everything done something wrong,it will be okay as 'he/she' will give u the kepentingan for u to move or to give u some food to eat!meanwhile if someone that does not has anything done the same thing as the previous one,'he/she' will be always dimengumpatkan.is that fair to us?fair enuff ha?

dissapointed?yeah.... a lot of things happen in my life that dissapoint me..a lot..my family,my love one,my friends.. and myself....should i face all of this alone..without anyone support...who will hold my hand until the end of my sufferred life...? who is willing to? no body?with the tears and hope.....i am always wishing that one day all of this will dissappear and i will be able to live my happy life with my beloved family and him and with the sincere support from my friends..AMIN..